Yup that's Sarah up on stage doing what she does best....... cheering. Even on stage Sarah couldn't stop moving and talking. In her hand is her trohphy she got this year. It was funny that all of the 6th graders that were there got just that 1 trophy. I am not complaining because she has alot but I know that Sarah was disappointed. In years past she came home with 3. They didn't do alot of awards this year. I am not sure why but they didn't. All in all Sarah had fun. She couldn't wait to go and even wanted to dress up but because her mean mom wouldn't go out and get the shoes she wanted she decided to just wear what she wore to school that day. That is just fine with me!!! I am happy that this cheering is over. No more Sunday matches and missing Sunday school. No more looking for bloomers that she just had the night before. No more WHITE practice sneakers she can only wear for matches and can't wear outside at all!!! What a waste of money! YEA YEA we are free until she tries out for the school team. Atleast they cheer during the week!
How do I say goodbye to my mom. How can I do that and not hurt? Memories keep coming to me and I laugh or I cry mostly I cry. I cry because I didn’t write down that favorite recipe she always made when we came home. I cry because I should have had more patience with her. I cry because I won’t be able to sit and have tea with her. Ever. Never again. I cry for myself. I cry for my brothers. I cry for my children and their children. How do I make this hurt any less than it does? How do I make the tears stop flowing? Is there a way to make them stop? Maybe laughter. Maybe that is the way. Remember the good times. Remember hotdog soup. Remember frying pans knocking someone out. Remember the car rides to grandmas house. Remember the summer trips. Laughing helps but not for long. Family around me will be sure to help. Getting together and celebrating her. That will help. I now know that nothing will help. I think this hurt will last the rest of my life. I don’t want this. I want my mom....
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