Ok so I have neglected my blogging duties.... sorry. I have no excuse other than the fact that nothing has really been going on. I have been really focused on My Longaberger business and it is starting to show. My goal is to be a speaker at our national convention in July and by selling a little more I might just be able to. I can't tell you how good it feels to really have fun at a job and make some money. I enjoy it so much and look foward to meeting new people. If you want a catalog let me know I would be happy to send you one or even do a show for you.
How do I say goodbye to my mom. How can I do that and not hurt? Memories keep coming to me and I laugh or I cry mostly I cry. I cry because I didn’t write down that favorite recipe she always made when we came home. I cry because I should have had more patience with her. I cry because I won’t be able to sit and have tea with her. Ever. Never again. I cry for myself. I cry for my brothers. I cry for my children and their children. How do I make this hurt any less than it does? How do I make the tears stop flowing? Is there a way to make them stop? Maybe laughter. Maybe that is the way. Remember the good times. Remember hotdog soup. Remember frying pans knocking someone out. Remember the car rides to grandmas house. Remember the summer trips. Laughing helps but not for long. Family around me will be sure to help. Getting together and celebrating her. That will help. I now know that nothing will help. I think this hurt will last the rest of my life. I don’t want this. I want my mom....
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