Here they are the God Sisters. Yup thats what they call themselves. I think it's really cute. Mark and Tina are Sarah's Godparents and we are Tori's so God sister's were born. Sarah had a great time on her trip. She definetly had an adventure though. On the way down the car broke down in North Carolina. They had to get a hotel room. She finally got there and went to see a movie. One of Tina's dogs got into Sarah's thyroid medicine and ate them. It was funny. I guess the dog thought she needed them more. They also went to Nashville for Tori to sing at a writer's showcase. If I haven't told you before Tori is an AWESOME singer. I really like to hear her sing. She has her own songs on myspace music. I will have to get that link and put it here. (So come back later and it will be here) I was happy to see Sarah when I picked her up on Friday night. She told me that I am not allowed to text her when she goes away anymore. I texted her too much. I laughed and told her if she would answer my questions when I text I wouldn't have to keep texting. I would text and ask her "what r you doing?" she would reply "nothing". I would then text "what r u doing later?" she would reply "IDK" (i don't know). yup full of information for her mom. I missed her alot when she was gone. She came home and left again for camp. I can't wait for next week! I will have her all to myself! Then she has to answer my questions. ha ha.
How do I say goodbye to my mom. How can I do that and not hurt? Memories keep coming to me and I laugh or I cry mostly I cry. I cry because I didn’t write down that favorite recipe she always made when we came home. I cry because I should have had more patience with her. I cry because I won’t be able to sit and have tea with her. Ever. Never again. I cry for myself. I cry for my brothers. I cry for my children and their children. How do I make this hurt any less than it does? How do I make the tears stop flowing? Is there a way to make them stop? Maybe laughter. Maybe that is the way. Remember the good times. Remember hotdog soup. Remember frying pans knocking someone out. Remember the car rides to grandmas house. Remember the summer trips. Laughing helps but not for long. Family around me will be sure to help. Getting together and celebrating her. That will help. I now know that nothing will help. I think this hurt will last the rest of my life. I don’t want this. I want my mom....
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