Can you believe they got 2nd. As you can see from Sarah's face she is very excited. This is her last competition for the bulldogs. She is now too old to cheer for the township and has to try out for the school team. She can't wait for that. Sometime soon is the tryouts. We will keep our fingers crossed and pray she makes it. Her school's name is East Hills Middle School and her best friend is on the squad. I have to say Sarah really has improved this year. She is always doing cheer m
oves and loves to shout. She gets her mouth from her mom :-]. I always knew it would come in handy!
How do I say goodbye to my mom. How can I do that and not hurt? Memories keep coming to me and I laugh or I cry mostly I cry. I cry because I didn’t write down that favorite recipe she always made when we came home. I cry because I should have had more patience with her. I cry because I won’t be able to sit and have tea with her. Ever. Never again. I cry for myself. I cry for my brothers. I cry for my children and their children. How do I make this hurt any less than it does? How do I make the tears stop flowing? Is there a way to make them stop? Maybe laughter. Maybe that is the way. Remember the good times. Remember hotdog soup. Remember frying pans knocking someone out. Remember the car rides to grandmas house. Remember the summer trips. Laughing helps but not for long. Family around me will be sure to help. Getting together and celebrating her. That will help. I now know that nothing will help. I think this hurt will last the rest of my life. I don’t want this. I want my mom....
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