Well here is the new builder! Noah and Dad decided to have a Father son day. They built this from the erector set Noah got for Christmas from Grandma. They were very happy with the oil rig. Noah said they are going to start the Ferris Wheel next! He wanted to start out small incase he didn't like it. So watch out because he is set on building things now. He reminds me of my brother Chuckie. (or Charlie as he likes to be called now). Chuckie was always taking things apart only to put it all back together again. Most of the time with extra parts. I think thier minds work the same! Anyway Noah just found something else to do. I don't think I want to show him the build a robot kits!
How do I say goodbye to my mom. How can I do that and not hurt? Memories keep coming to me and I laugh or I cry mostly I cry. I cry because I didn’t write down that favorite recipe she always made when we came home. I cry because I should have had more patience with her. I cry because I won’t be able to sit and have tea with her. Ever. Never again. I cry for myself. I cry for my brothers. I cry for my children and their children. How do I make this hurt any less than it does? How do I make the tears stop flowing? Is there a way to make them stop? Maybe laughter. Maybe that is the way. Remember the good times. Remember hotdog soup. Remember frying pans knocking someone out. Remember the car rides to grandmas house. Remember the summer trips. Laughing helps but not for long. Family around me will be sure to help. Getting together and celebrating her. That will help. I now know that nothing will help. I think this hurt will last the rest of my life. I don’t want this. I want my mom....
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