Here is Sarah and Mermah. A few of my friends have said Sarah looks like my Mom. Sometimes I see it, sometimes I don't. This picture was taken last Saturday when we went to drop off Great Grandma at her house. We sat in the porch and I snapped away. Sarah didn't like the first couple so I had to take more. This is the first one I did. I thought it was the nicest! Just thought I would show everyone how my mom and daughter looked. Enjoy the picture!
How do I say goodbye to my mom. How can I do that and not hurt? Memories keep coming to me and I laugh or I cry mostly I cry. I cry because I didn’t write down that favorite recipe she always made when we came home. I cry because I should have had more patience with her. I cry because I won’t be able to sit and have tea with her. Ever. Never again. I cry for myself. I cry for my brothers. I cry for my children and their children. How do I make this hurt any less than it does? How do I make the tears stop flowing? Is there a way to make them stop? Maybe laughter. Maybe that is the way. Remember the good times. Remember hotdog soup. Remember frying pans knocking someone out. Remember the car rides to grandmas house. Remember the summer trips. Laughing helps but not for long. Family around me will be sure to help. Getting together and celebrating her. That will help. I now know that nothing will help. I think this hurt will last the rest of my life. I don’t want this. I want my mom....
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